Hurry Up & Wait

How often do you find yourself rushing to get somewhere or start something only to get to the appointed place or time and then are forced to hold? There are times when I feel like I am constantly in hurry-up-and-wait mode. This is one of them.

It’s been longer than I realized since I last wrote for my blog. It got put on the back burner while I have been forging ahead on my new adventure. But now, I’m in the waiting mode. I’m all ready to press the gas but am at the mercy of others awaiting the green light.

I assume this is what people feel like when they are building a house from start to finish. They start with a fast pace of choosing a lot and home design and signing all the paperwork.  They are filled with the excitement of seeing their dream home become a reality. But then the dreaded slowdowns occur. From labor and supply shortages to weather delaying schedules. Something always seems to pop up to disturb the flow and force the homeowners to wait. For it’s out of their control and all they can do is trust that everyone is working in their best interest.

Life in general is that way. We can get all the balls rolling and put in all that we have but there will inevitably be a speedbump or two along the way. 

So what do we do while we wait?

At times I know that God has forced me into waiting mode and I know that I must be faithful and wait on His timing. Allowing myself to be still, wait, listen, really listen and wait. For me, this may be the most challenging wait time to deal with. 

Other times I have forged ahead quicker than someone else on a project and it forces me to remember that I’m part of a team and it isn’t always my timetable that is most important. My frustrations are usually higher in this situation as I want others to have the same sense of urgency as me. This hurry-up-and-wait mode makes me feel like I will fall behind or fail if I don’t keep moving on the project.

My wait mode now is forcing me to be behind the schedule I set for myself. Sometimes, this will cause me to shut down feeling like maybe a door is being shut or allowing self-doubt to creep in and tell me this will never happen.  However, I realize this may be a blessing this time. It is allowing me the time to make sure I don’t press go until I know that my foundation is solid. It’s giving me the ability to take my time being creative instead of rushing the process. 

I have permitted myself to take time for myself when needed. Rest when my body says to. Relax and enjoy this slow time. The time is coming when I will hit the gas and be off and running to reach my goals. For now, I will appreciate the waiting period.